Born Middle Aged!

The Shark Fisherman of Wales was born middle aged. I was born with a Pipe and Slippers. I have never been young. Maybe in body, but never in spirit. As a Teenager in the Early 1980's I was listening to cassette tapes of Rock & Roll. Used to go into Our Price in Watford and get the most obscure Rockabilly I could find. I always wanted a Flat Top. Never had one! I was on the lookout for Chucka Boots. You've probably had the feeling that you belong to a different time, era, place, planet even. As I stated at the beginning of this blog, I felt it then to be a Farewell Letter, a Dear John Letter to Wales, the land of my birth. I was born in the South, reared in the North and am now living mostly in the middle with occasional sojourns to Das Kapital! I made a chart a few year back with all the years I have been on't planet starting with 1966. Up until aged 10 I suppose all was ticking along hunky-dory. I put one word next to the year to describe the overall general emotional well being of tut Shark Fisherman, Good, Bad, Ok! I look back over the years and I notice that my best years or when things were good were when I lived outside of Wales. The two years from 1983-1985 in Watford College. The four years from 2000 - 2004 when I was a Teacher in South East London. They were the interesting years even though I was undiagnosed at the time. Bipolar Disorder lest we forget! "So you dumb schmuck why don't you high tail it out of there?" Oh that it were so easy! I have invested a lot of time and effort in trying to understand this country, this principality of ours. I've gone through all the stages, from the rugby jersey wearing jerk to the card carrying member of Plaid Cymru. I am trying to evolve into a Multi-sensory being. The day of five sensory beings is coming to a close. What use Wales if the world is fucked would be my argument now? The Earth needs saving and then we can save Wales. I run on emotion and Wales is an emotional country with emotional people. I feel impotent! Unable to move or make a move! It's a good country to retreat too should the going get tough.  It would be so easy to move geographically but I feel that I have unfinished business but I don't know what that is. Watch this Space Shark Watchers and Followers!