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Saturday, 29 July 2023

Guest Blog Post: Author Ekaterina Netchitailova

 


So Ekaterina Netchitailova welcome to Shark Fishing in Wales as Guest Author and thank you for agreeing to answer my questions.

Can I check is it Netchitailova or Petrovna?

This is a very good question, and the answer is quite long, reflecting my family name, which is Netchitailova. It means 'unreadable' in Russian, which is a pity as one of my greatest passions in life is writing! Petrovna is a patronym. We all have it, back in Russia. It reflects the name of your father. My dad's first name is Petr, and therefore, I am Petrovna. If I lived in Russia, I would be called Ekaterina Petrovna by people who don't know me well, or in official settings. Here, everyone calls me just Ekaterina, but you can also call me Katia. It's another thing in Russia, - the first names have their own variations. Svetlana becomes Sveta, Aleksandra is Sasha, Daria is Dasha, and Ekaterina is Katia.

I understand that it's all a bit confusing, but that's what different cultures and traditions are for - to know something interesting. I think that knowledge of different cultures and national habits enriches our lives! 

When did you first begin writing and in what language?

I started to write at the age of fourteen, and in Russian. I lived in Moscow then and reading was my greatest pleasure in life. I tried to write, and even won a third place at one of the writing competitions at my school, but didn't pursue this hobby until the age of twenty-seven, right after my experience with a psychosis. Writing helped me to recover and make sense of what was happening to me on a spiritual level. Since then I can't stop writing. It became a passion. I also write in English, which might appear as weird, but I love the English language and often think in English. 

Who were your main writing influences?

My main writing influence is Master and Margarita by Bulgakov.  The book tells two parallel stories. In one story Bulgakov tells about the devil visiting the Soviet Union, and in his second story, he tells the reader about Jesus. I read the book for the first time when I was twelve, which is a bit early for such a profound and deep novel, but I fell in love with it at once. I couldn't stop laughing from the second page, and I remember thinking back then: 'wow, this is the best book ever'. Bulgakov had an incredible ability to combine humour with magic, and serious discussion of the meaning of life, and our existence. I wish I could write something like this! 

Are you a big reader?

Yes, when I have time. I read everyday, even if it's for five minutes. I have a busy life: my work, raising my son, writing when I can find time, improving my Dutch language skills. In the past, before the birth of my son, I could spend an entire day reading. It helped me to escape to a better world. 

Who are your favourite authors and why are they your favourite authors.

So many! Well, I already mentioned Bulgakov. I love his writings because he had incredibly unusual stories. The devil visiting the Soviet Union - how cool is that?!

I also love short stories of Chekov. He had a subtle way to laugh about the grotesque occurrences: bureaucracy, corruption, judgemental way of looking at others. 

In poetry I admire Anna Achmatova and her gentle way of writing.

I also like Paulo Coelho, as his books appeal to me on a spiritual level. I am a big fan of Kate Atkinson, and especially 'Life after Life'. I love the Belgian writer Amelie Nothomb, and read her in French. I like also a good crime story, and I don't really have a favorite genre - I just love well-written books. Nikki French, Sophie Hannah and many others help me to relax and enjoy reading.

You are a blogger like myself. Tell us about your blogging history.

Well. I have been a blogger for a long time, but a blogger with stupid history. I first launched one blog and once it became more or less popular, I deleted it. I did it to two other blogs to mine. I suffer from imposter syndrome. Who am I really, writing in English that isn't even my native language? But with age and acquiring maturity I decided to stick to my writing. First of all, I really love writing, and secondly, I do have a story to tell. With my experience of psychoses maybe I can connect with a few isolated hearts, and appeal to them. But I also write about different countries where I lived, and about life in general.  

Now you also like me, are a self published author! Can you tell us why you went down the self publishing route.

My dream is to publish with a traditional big publisher one day. But I decided to publish my story 'Elena: A Love Story for Humankind', because I didn't have the energy to look for an agent. The book was written with such a speed (two months) and flow that I couldn't wait to share it with others, but if a traditional publisher approaches me, I will be the happiest person on earth.  

You are a multilingual author. How many languages do you speak?

I speak four languages. Russian, French, English and Dutch. That's because I lived in four different countries (in two of them twice). I love languages and discovering different cultures. 

Why did you decide to write in English?

I love the English language. It's the language that many people speak around the globe and I like the idea that people from different countries can easily read what I have to say. 

Could you tell us about your first book please and how it came about?

My first book (unpublished) is a memoir. It's a memoir about my psychoses, about Russia and living in the West. It's a work of many years, changing along with my perception of what was happening to me.  

Do you have any writing tips for aspiring authors? What has worked for you in  the past?

I am an aspiring author myself! But the tip I would give any writer is that it's the process that matters, more than the outcome. Writing heals, writing boots creativity and imagination. The sweet moments when one is 'in the flow' is a gift from the universe. It's good, of course, to get a publishing deal at the end, but it's the journey that really matters. For me, writing is relaxation for my brain. I literally feel it unwinding. Therefore, my advice is: enjoy it.

Do you have a strict writing discipline or do you wait for inspiration to strike?

I try to write everyday when I am on holidays, and on weekends when I am working. So, yes, I have a writing discipline, but not that strict.  

What have you learnt about the nuts and bolts of self publishing? Cover Design, Editing, Readership and Marketing.

Well, one sure thing is that you need some budget for marketing! How, otherwise, can you reach your audience? It's very hard to grow organically nowadays (without promotion), because of the saturation of online social networks. Therefore the only way to get your book out where is to have some money to promote it.  However, based on my own experience, I think that being published by a traditional publisher is still the best way for an aspiring author. They have expertise, readership, and design teams. 

Tell us about your work in progress, namely 'The Russian Patient'. Isn't this the title of one of your blogs?

It was, but I renamed my blog into Porcupines Wisdom, as it's my writing that I find important and not where I come from. But there is a book, called The Russian Patient, which is a memoir.  

Without giving too much away 'What can you tell us about your Work in Progress?"

So, I have The Russian Patient (memoir, which is unpublished), Elena: A Love Story for Humankind, that is available on Amazon. I also have an entire first part in the series of two books called 'Outsiders, and am writing a new novel, whose subject I want to keep private for now:) 

When do you hope to publish it and how? Self Publish or Traditional Route?

Traditional route! I love bookstores, and prefer myself to buy books that have been published by a traditional publisher, as it assures the quality of writing. 

Have you sent your work out to agents and publishers in the past?

Yes, I did. I did it with The Russian Patient, and I had an agent who was interested, but the book needed more work! 

 Finally could you tell us how being a citizen with a dual Russian/Ukrainian family lineage, that this war and conflict has impacted you as a writer and perhaps more pertinently as a human being.

I discuss this painful subject in one of my blog posts.

https://porcupineswisdom.org/2021/12/10/growing-up-in-the-soviet-union-a-short-story-about-russia-and-ukraine/



Ekaterina Netchitailova



Wednesday, 26 July 2023

Ar Bigau'r Drain



Dwi ar bigau'r drain ag dwni'm pam. 

Dych chi'n cael y teimlad ble dych i dan fygythiad. Bygythiadau ym mhob man. Bygythiadau dychmygol yn aml iawn. Dyma sut mae pobol propaganda yn gweithio. Yn pwyso eich botymau ofn yn eich isymwybod. Yr amgen, yr arall, yr eraill.

Oes yna air Cymraeg am gaslighting dw’ch? Mae rhai pobol dych chi'n adnabod yn chwarae ar eich ofnau ac yn cael hwyl yn gwneud hynny. Mae yn rhoi pleser iddynt i weld chi yn anghyffyrddus.

Mae hunan addoliad, hunan serch yn perthyn i rai pobol. Y narcissists bondigrybwyll. Sut ydach chi'n gwybod os dych chi'n delio gyda hunan-addolwr? Dydy o ddim gwastad yn glir. Maent yn gallu cuddio tu ôl i gyfaredd, swyn.

Mae'r hunan addolwr eisiau rhywbeth oddi wrthoch chi. Gan amlaf rhywbeth ni allant gymryd meddiant ohono sef eich enaid neu eich urddas, eich haelioni neu eich uniongyrchedd.

Maent yn gweithio arnoch chi fel dŵr yn llifo dros garreg. Jest digon bob tro i greu anniddigrwydd ond y swyn yn aros yn yr atgof. Dych chi'n mynd nôl am fwy a fwy o gamdriniaeth emosiynol ag dych chi jest ddim yn deall pam. 

Mae'r hunan-addolwr wedi sylwi eich bod yn dioddef o hunan barch isel ac maent yn chwarae ar y ffaith yna bob tro dych chi'n cwrdd. Mae ymostyngiad neu 'condescension' yn arf mawr yn ei arfogaeth oherwydd maent yn ymwybodol yn y faith eich bod wedi cael eich cywilyddio gan bobol mewn awdurdod yn y gorffennol. Sut maen nhw yn gwybod? 

Oherwydd maen nhw wedi dioddef yr un fath ond maent wedi delio gyda'r siom mewn ffordd wahanol. Mae nhw wedi troi mewn i'r person wnaeth cywilyddio nhw. Fel cameleon dynol maent yn gallu trawsnewid ei phersonoliaeth a'i ddull o fod yn syth os yw'r sefyllfa yn gofyn am hynny. Y sefyllfa yna ydy'r un ble maent yn ei elwa.  Gan amlaf yn ariannol ond yn gyffredinol yn emosiynol. Mae rhaid iddynt ddod allan o bob cyfarfod tasant nhw yn dod allan o ornest, wedi i'w ennill.

Dim ond yn ddiweddar yn fy oes dwi wedi dod yn ymwybodol o'r fath bobol. Bobol sydd ddim yn stret gyda chi. Bobol gydag agendor. Bobol sydd yn atgyfnerthu'r teimlad ynddoch chi na dim ond yn ymwneud gyda chi i elwa mewn rhyw ffordd.

Mae hwn yn gallu bod yn sefyllfa anodd i chi oherwydd mae bob achos fel hyn yn gwanhau eich ymddiriedolaeth yn y natur ddynol ag mi rydych yn cilio mwy a mwy rhag ymwneud a phobol. 

Dwi a'r bigau'r drain.     

Sunday, 16 July 2023

A Letter to an Invisible Man

 

A Letter to an Invisible Man

 


Wotcher Cock? How invisible do you feel today? Not invisible enough eh?

Toxic Masculinity and the Patriarchy giving you a bad name.

Your twenty years of fame are surely to blame.

To go from a somebody to a nobody in one quick exposure was always your plan.

Thanatos planted by ‘cywilydd Capel’

 

It’s a funny old game innit, celebrity, fame

We’re all blaming the Sun but that newspaper is our collective subconscious

It is the swamp of our minds writ large

By screaming blue murder at it we’re screaming at ourselves

You haven’t read enough Self Help books, go look on the shelves.

 

The loneliness and isolation you must have felt all these years

as a ‘Trophy Welshman’ holding your own among the British Establishment

We would admire your suit and curled lip and unfinished croissant

“Didn’t he do well” “Look you, indeed to goodness he’s one of our own”

The ebullient personality and dark moods.

 

Now in a Hospital bed you think back to all you have lost

But think to what you have gained

The knowledge that heterosexuality, marriage and family is all a game

It is within those prisons that men hide all their shame

It’s out now, so you are free.

Neither in work nor looking for employment

"Hi I am Daf Williams and I am economically inactive." I feel that I am in some kind of group therapy where I have to admit my add...

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