I hate talking on the phone, I despise receiving calls. I'm not sure why this is. It wasn't always like this. I think it's linked to my complete loss of confidence. I don't want Supply Teaching Agencies contacting me offering work because even though the money would be useful I cannot multi task. I have been without the mobile for the last 3 weeks or rather I have been without the charger, the unit that supplies the power to allow people to bother me. I'm sorry to say that even when friends phone I am unlikely to answer. Texting is preferable to speaking because I am unlikely to agree to something that I don't want to agree to. People can doorstep you over the phone.
It's very rarely that I will answer the door as well. Compared to people I know, I wouldn't describe myself as particularly introverted but I am withdrawn and I am wounded and a political canvasser or Jehova's Wittnesses will, despite their best intentions, receive a F off through the letterbox or a 'non-dom' reply. I don't live here. I think it's linked to my historical inability to say no to people. I was a people pleaser and now I don't want to please anybody apart from myself. Your brain becomes hard wired and in the animal kingdom salespeople can smell a soft touch so I won't go anywhere where my decision making will be compromised. Cold Callers don't call anymore because they know I am really Cold. So if you didn't know before, this is 'Hello-Goodbye'.
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