Who put the Shark in Shark Fishing? Well I did of course. Why? because at my advanced age, despite plenty of evidence to the contrary I see the world as a hostile and brutal place and I see human beings as essentially selfish. So the Sharks referred to here are the human variety! People who will after a while of swimming around make up their mind and either swoop and take advantage or move on to their next prey. I include Builders, friends (So called) aquaintances, work colleagues, partners( romantic and otherwise)
My mood disorder has not helped matters and I identify a Schema or Life Pattern that I have as one of Mistrust. That is why I much prefer my socialising through social networking rather than of the face to face variety. I have had people say "Are you getting out more?" They probably mean well but I find it very condescending especially at my age. If I wanted to get out more I would get out more but I identify as an Introvert. I don't want or need the noise and the hurly burly but I also realise that something is missing, something vital. Perhaps humans do not set out deliberately to make eachother unhappy but through their own selfishness and emphasis on the self, they make others unhappy. For some reason we cannot but help having expectations of other people. This is very unhealthy in my humble. Do we need to nurture independence at a much younger age? Attachment is a negative phenomenon that can have repurcussions throughout your life. Attachment to places, people and things (hoarding?) attachment to safety. Feel the fear, well we do that so well as humans. I am familiar with the Law of Attraction and manifesting through positive imagery etc but for some reason despite my best intentions I revert to type and see human beings as fuckwits! And yes I realise that this is projection and I am just a fuckwit as well, but what can you do?
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